Sunday, March 20, 2011

The Scudder's Back !

My friend from the East set me off again ,, thinking, and that's not always a good thing !

I would like some Politician to answer the following questions / statements of facts ... IF THEY CAN !
What idiot brain box ( or was it a Government "Think-Tank" ? ) thought it was a good idea to price our students out of University ? Can you imagine having a noose round your neck to the tune of approx. £70 grand ( including bank Interest ! ) 'til you're in your 50's .,., what chance a mortgage, kids, ( with no chance of a UNI placement of course !! ) as well ??
This has simply put a Uni education beyond most folks ,,, not, of course those same politico families, foreign despots weans and maybe Mafia God Father's offspring !
OK, tell me why DUMBING down our country even further is a good idea ?

Here's another joke that I can't quite get !  How come if we are going thro' the worst recession in the last 50-years or so, can we always find £BILLIONS to send in aid to any foreign outstreached hand ??
We give money to so called 3rd. world countries who are nowadays better off than us ,,, For example we still hand out aid to China who are currently building the worlds fastest, most advanced passenger train service .,.,., India ,, not only do we give them money, but all our jobs too ,, and even train them to do them ( badly ! )  We've been pouring cash into Africa for the past 30-years ( at least ).,., anybody ever see these Africans doing any work with our money ?? you know, building housing, roads, schools etc ,,, NOPE, me neither , but boy are they great at sitting about on their lazy arses with the pair mooth  look .,.,., Oh aye, and all these poor aids infected weans ( on average it looks like about 8 per family !! ) So now at least we know what work they're good at ,,, BUT I'd rather they did that on their own cash rather than mine ! More hard graft building up their country's infrastructure & less shagging might help ?
And we further support these people with obscene £Millions every bloody Red Nose Year !!.,., while our own British Poor are getting poorer !

And still talking recession .,., why don't we ever get a Government with the balls needed to simply put a STOP to the bankers ( that we bailed out ! ) paying themselves criminally excessive salaries .,., and bonuses should not be allowed 'til they've paid us all back for our loan ? What's difficult in that ?

Then there's the highest taxed petrol in the civilsed world ! Incompetent, greedy, useless Politicos again .,.,
These petrol tax levels are obscene and MUST be changed ,, DOWN !!
Why not use the African / Indian / Chinese aid money to reduce OUR home TAXES ??
Or maybe ( again a proper Government required unfortunately ) our football clubs should never be allowed to be owned by foreign rich people .,., and for Christ's sake get a ceiling ( and I mean hugely lower, sensible wages consistent with the ability to kick a ball two or three days a week ! ) on daft wee boy footie players earning 10-times what the bloody Prime Minister earns !  And while we're on the subject, why are all our teams using ptractically exclusively FOREIGN players .,., This is sure doing wonders for our home International teams .,., NOT !  Get these immigrant players back to a max. of two or three per team.

I could go on ( and probably will later ! ) but for now I'm off to watch the cup final !
But one last very serious thought / comment  .,.,
If I was a younger man there's only one thing I'd consider doing in this country .,.,
and that's EMIGRATE !

Strange Experiences ?

Had a strange wee experience last night in bed !!
My dodgy stomach started on one of its long rumbles ,,, nothing painful, just noisy !
The rumble rolled round my lower intestines and up past my left side kidney, over the liver and finally down to my heart ,,,,, ( see how I've learned where stuff is located in there :).
At this point the noise stopped abruptly and I swear I heard this .,.,., in a wee Glesca punter voice .,
My heart actually spoke to me ,, It said Hello ,, a wee up on the hel and down on the lo .,., It was so clear and unmistakably a voice that I actually looked over to make sure the beloved was sound asleep before I ANSWERED !!  I said Hello back .,., Am I losing it ??

So while we're on the subject, the last two / three weeks have been bad ones .,., firstly a nasty little chest infection ( treated with antibiotics ) delayed my Chemo session by a week ,,  the anti B's loosened my already loose bowels so I countered with loads of Imodium ( as directed by my local GP )
All the while the pain in my gut was getting steadily worse .,., The Imodium finally did the trick after about a week ,,, However I then went into a constipation week ,, which was even worse on the gut pain .,.,
Now, to the point of this wee tale .,., At about the same time as the loose / tight bowels started I felt a funny pins & needles / numb feeling .,., wait for it ,, on the outside of my left arm, just above the elbow !
A very odd sensation indeed but again not painful, just kinda dead, numb to the touch ,, Oh and itchy  .,., that's what brought it to my attention in the first place ,,scratching it but not feeling it ?
Anyway, here's the strange bit ! Immediately following the cure of the constipation ( achieved by drinking the awful Movicol for a few days ) and blast off was resumed, the numb feeling disappeared ????
This puts a whole new slant on the old saying, commented the beloved in bed that night ,, leaving both of us giggling like a pair of old loonies .,., in her own inimitable way she told me ,,,
I always knew you didn't know your arse from your elbow !!  

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Dusk 'til Dawn SCREAMING !

I had a wee bit of a bad week last week ,,, just the " normal these days " sore stomach, more loo visits, lack of energy, unable to sleep etc ,, On one such night, when sleep just wouldn't come I finally got up and came downstairs ,, around 4am .,. my easy chair in the living room has proved much better to get off to sleep in than the bed of late !
However, prior to sleep came a poem ,, my first !  Words I just couldn't move out of my head 'til I had written them down ,,, It almost describes how I was feeling that night / morning !

Can't sleep
Can't waken
Can't dream
I so want to SCREAM !

Can't disturb the bed
And all it contains
The beloved needs rest
SHE carries no blame
Oh, to just SCREAM ...

Make her believe
We can't go together
We never could
That's a lovely but insane "dream"
You do it for me my love when it's time to SCREAM ...

But ... Can still think
Can still need
Can still weep
Can still love
But still can't SCREAM

Dreaded disease
Wrecks the body
Transgresses the brain
This thing's not over, we fight to the end
Arghhh ... must soon SCREAM ...

The pain can be hellish
But chemo is king
He's going to win
Have to believe
Can't conceive
Of emptiness & nothing
Arghhhhhh I'm SCREAMING ( inside.)

The hands & the feet
Tingling & shocked
The face too but worse
Walking into the Spider's web
The face melts to ice

Loving my children,
Their children too
Is all that I need
To see this thing through
This Nightmare of SCREAMING

Happiness & rage
They're almost the same
I know which I'll choose
On that last page
With another silent SCREAM

A friend's Champagne
Lies still in the fridge
Maybe we'll drink it together
To celebrate an end
Then we can SCREAM ( in joy ? )

A father might lose
This fight to the death
Won't be forgotten
Left happiness behind
Together now .,., Let's all SCREAM

But I WILL SCREAM with outrage
On that fateful day
I'll cling on to still being ...
Alive and hey,
I'm SCREAM ING ... out LOUD !